Two weeks ago, on November 18th in the afternoon, our beautiful dog Sunday passed away unexpectedly.

There are so many things I want to say - I could write everything I feel about Sunday for a million lifetimes and it still wouldn't feel like enough.

I try to keep my personal life separate from Roseglass, but I decided to share this here because Sunday was with me from the first day I started this blog. She would lovingly lay her head on my lap when I wrote, or sleep next to me when I made videos or took photos. She would snuggle me when I was sad and we would play and celebrate when anything cool happened.

Part of what makes this so hard is that Sunday was really the heart of Roseglass. She loved seeing people come together and feel happy and share all the magical moments in life with each other. I've thought so many times over the past 2 weeks that how could I possibly ever feel happy again when I don't have Sunday here with me? How could I write or post anything when all I want to say is, "I miss Sunday." Like with all people/animals/things we lose, they would want us to find the magic.

I named Roseglass as a play on words of the phrase, "Look at the past through rose-colored glasses." I know that that tends to have a negative connotation, it usually means you're ignorant or not seeing things as they truly are. But for me, I thought it was a lovely sentiment. To look at the past for its beautiful moments, or to try to look at the negative as something that could be positive.

I know everyone on this planet has lost something or somebody that meant everything to them and while I wish it weren't the case, it's one of the most human experiences one can have. In a strange way it makes me feel less alone. When we first picked baby Sunday out and took her home, we knew she wouldn't live forever. That's the price we pay for loving a dog. There's never enough time. And every moment we had with her was perfect.

For me and my husband, Sunday was a symbol of all our dreams. Buying a house, having kids, going through the tough times and the joyous times together. Maybe growing Roseglass into something bigger than us. She was always there every time we imagined those things. Instead of her physically being here for all of those moments, we have to believe that she is our angel and we must keep believing in those dreams for her.

I shared this on my TikTok and had written it very shortly after Sunday passed. I am hoping that everything I can create for the rest of my lifetime can be in Sunday's honor:

Our sweet baby Sunday Girl passed away unexpectedly yesterday. This pain is unlike any other. She was the love of our lives and taught us to enjoy every little moment. She loved everyone deeply and was loved back just as deeply by everyone she ever met.

I don't normally post much about my personal life on here, but you may recognize Sunday from the background of my videos. She always laid on the bed when I was filming because we loved being together. She would lay next to me when I wrote all my blog posts for Roseglass. She always made me feel like I could do anything and that I would never be alone.

The only thing I can think to do to honor her is to keep her spirit alive. To continue creating and connecting with people like she always did. To make her proud in Heaven.

We named her Sunday because she was our "Sunday Kind of Love". She reminded us of the sweet slowness of life, the warmth of the sunshine, the feeling you get on a Sunday morning spent with the ones you love when all your worries melt away.

We love you Sunday. We miss you. We'll think of you when the breeze passes through the trees (something you always stopped to admire), every time we hear our wedding song, through every beautiful moment for the rest of our lives, any moment where love is the center - we know we will find you there.

Love, Sunday's Mom.

I also wanted to share this list of things I wrote a few days after Sunday passed when I was trying to understand why she passed away and how I could put into words just some of the impact she has had on me:

Things Sunday Girl Taught Me

1. Take the time to rest. When life feels overwhelming, try to snuggle your loved ones.
2. If the sun is shining, soak in every ray.
3. When someone walks in the door after being away, even if just for an hour, greet them with a smile, a hug, and some magical excitement.
4. Enjoy how wonderful food is, especially savor in the delight and simplicity of popcorn.
5. Notice the beauty of a shimmering pool of water. Jump in with no thought to your hair or the inconvenience this may cause.
6. Be playful and curious about life and no matter how dark things seem, turn to the hope that tomorrow is a new opportunity to see the sun.
7. Love your family to the core of your being. Release any trivial conflict and thank God for their presence.
8. Believe in the inherent goodness in everyone you meet. Believe in the inherent goodness of yourself.
9. Greet your friends with the excitement that you couldn't wait to see them and that you're going to have the most wonderful time together.
10. Laugh at the silliness of life. Revel in making others laugh.
11. Don't let guilt or sadness diminish your trust in yourself. Even when you question your decisions, understand that everything is as it was meant to be.
12. When you are sad, cry fully. When someone you love is sad, allow them to cry fully. And place your chin on their lap to comfort them. Telling them without words, "It's okay."
13. Don't try to be perfect. You may be afraid to jump in, but jump and figure it out as you go.
14. When given the opportunity, run in the grass, sit on the porch, lay under a tree. Feel the breeze on your skin and smile inside knowing how perfect the moment is.
15. Worry not for every moment is precious.

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If you have ever experienced loss on any level, please know you are not alone. Please also know that everything I create has always had and will always have Sunday's love at its core.

I appreciate you all more than you even know.

- Sierra